Friday, August 10, 2012

Now for Healing

Click in Moms has a great article on the subjecting of getting yourself out of life's slumps, it is basic knowledge but sometimes it helps to have someone remind us of what we need to do next.

What next? How do I move on and learn to heal?

I don't fully know the answer to this questions, I know it will be a long process and I think I will have many moments where I remember, "Oh yeah I'm not pregnant anymore." The mornings are usually the worse when I wake up and my mind does this quick replay of the last couple weeks and I have to quickly relive it before I get out of bed in the morning. Or when the little girl I nanny asks me "Martha, are you a mom... why not!?" over and over. I walked past some strollers in a store the other day and promptly burst into tears. I just sat on weight machine at the gym yesterday and cried, it just washes over me no matter where I am. But this is about moving on and smiling again.

This quote has brought me a lot comfort by Elder Wirthlin:
"The Lord compensates the faithful for every loss. That which is taken away from those who love the Lord will be added unto them in His own way. While it may not come at the time we desire, the faithful will know that every tear today will eventually be returned a hundredfold with tears of rejoicing and gratitude."

- I am going to get my nails done and go to lunch with a friend
- Lay in bed with my husband and just be with each other
- Go to a Yoga class and lift weights
- Let my husband spoil me with dinner and a date
- Play sonic and sega racing with my husband {I always get really goofy and riled up}
- Try my absolute best to be happy for all my pregnant friends because it really is a miracle
- Appreciate all the things people have done for me
- Pray! Attend the temple
- Focus on all the things I am doing now and will do before we start our family
-Enjoying alone time with my hubby and our spontaneous life together
- I want to reach my final goal of losing 20lbs and stay healthy for the next pregnancy
She sent me this photo of Taylor and I when she heard the sad news. It made me weep! Such a sweet gesture  :)
My funny buck tooth smile and all this is pure joy caught on camera. I know we will find many more moments to bend over and just laugh out loud!


Rachel McCarty said...

your blog is beautiful.

janetina said...

Hi Martha,
I remember feeling those same feelings and then I had a baby! And then I had you! Life is a miracle and so are you! Love ou!