Thursday, January 24, 2013


It still amazes me how in just a couple of short weeks, more like days, our whole life plans can completely alter. But I won't be sharing about that just yet...

One whole year has passed since we decided to start a family. I have a hard time even comprehending that fact. I feel this tiny bit of relief knowing that a year later we are much more prepared and ready to start a family. But mostly sadness, confusion, so many unanswered questions.

Taylor and I both have friends who just adopted kids after years of failed pregnancies or none at all. I never thought I would be in this position. I always heard about infertility but never realized how prevalent it was.

I have learned so much through this experience alone. But two months ago was told I need to see a fertility specialist (the closest one being in Utah). Talk about expensive, and scary. I don't think I can even comprehend all of my feelings, but I can't help but think of what I would do if I couldn't have kids, how long does it take to adopt, all of these questions swirling around in my brain. In reality there could be nothing wrong at all, but I can't help but think of the worst case scenario. 

Every one keeps telling me:
It will happen when the time is right
Well your young
Enjoy the time you have alone together
It's probably just from birth control pills (which I haven't been on for years)

But it doesn't matter my age, or the fact thats others think I am too young. The pain is still there. All of those questions about my body, my future are still there. I don't even know how to comprehend this information or what to do with all of these hopeless feelings. I have a feeling this is only the start of our journey to try and start a family...

Sunday, January 13, 2013

TRX Certified

I had the honour this weekend to get TRX Certified. If you don't know what TRX is I would love to show you. It is an amazing suspension training system that takes the strain off of your joins and gets you an amazing total body functional work out. I am excited to now be offering personal TRX training sessions to my clients! It can be done in a gym or right in your home all we need is a door way.

45 Minute TRX Personal Training Sessions in home or at a gym 
Only $12

Email me to get your session set up today

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Seeing Clearer

Going to the gym alone just totally de-junks my brain. I feel like life makes sense and I can see things for how they really are in a much more positive light. I just can't help but look back over the past year and see all that has been accomplished and be happy with my life. I had so many goals for this past year and I would dare to say that I didn't do a single one. Which might sound disappointing right? Nope! 

Instead I fulfilled new goals and dreams I had forgotten I even had or never knew I had.

-I didn't have a baby, but my husband and I have been so strengthened and there is so much love in our home waiting for when we do have a child. 
-I didn't graduate with my bachelors but instead I became a personal trainer which has been so much more fulfilling.
-I turned down a job at a gym to work retail which landed me a Managers position getting me way further into a career then expected. Only from a tiny feeling Tay and I both had.
-We wanted to get pregnant again but we couldn't and now were going to do service work in Africa!

Taylor is graduating in only four months (which was not planned) and if you know me you'll know I like to plan out my life meticulously and this was not in the plans I made. Which made me a little angry because I always think I have the perfect plan for us and when it doesn't work out the way I thought it should I get scared. But this morning I was able to look back on all the things that worked out not even close to planned. Every time we have ended up happy, healthy, and in love! So bring on the next adventure world we're ready to do anything because I know we can handle a curve ball :)

I may think I know how life should be but the Lord always had a better plan.

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Reach Your Resolution!

I have reached a lot of different goals and dreams in the last year, it is so fulfilling! I want to help others reach theirs', and keep me on track along the way.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

2012 Wrap Up

This year I have had a lot of moments where I thought, "I'm actually a grown up!"
1. When I found out I was pregnant
2. When my pregnancy ended
3. Finished school and working a full time job where I'm the boss!

Dreams I fulfilled:
1. Certified Personal Trainer
2. Graduated College
3. I always wanted to work retail, and now I manage a store (weird I know, but I love my job)
4. I lost 25 lbs
5. Finally got bangs!

Taylor favorites from the year:
1. Team Leader of the Year Award
2. Cruise to Mexico
3. Moving to D.C.

Places we have lived this year:
(in order)
Rexburg, ID
Sterling, VA
Ashburn, VA
Reston, VA
Rexburg, ID

Exciting things for 2013:
1. Service trip to Africa
I will be volunteering as a dental assistant and Taylor will be helping out around the clinic
2. Taylor graduates with his BS in Business Managment
3. Baby Phillips??